Brie Bella and Nikki Bella dove gorgeous into the topic of postpartum despair on the most modern episode of The Bellas Podcast.

Coping with the “child blues” has been namely complex for first-time mother Nikki. She and her fiancé Artem Chigvintsev welcomed their son Matteo on July 31, but factual two weeks later, the skilled dancer needed to relocate to Los Angeles for a role on Dancing With the Stars. Nikki and Matteo ranking since joined Artem in L.A., but as she outlined on Wednesday, Sept. 30’s podcast, she’s quiet on her hold many of the time.

Which skill that, she in a roundabout intention broke down.

“This previous week, Brie and I, we had been in Phoenix packing up our properties, filming Whole Bellas,” Nikki started. “I had Matteo on my hold; quiet had a total house to pack up—I did ranking motivate on that, but you proceed to want to attain so noteworthy—filming on high of it, and I had a huge breakdown.”

She persevered, noting that it wasn’t factual Artem’s absence that used to be affecting her; she had also hired motivate for Matteo and used to be starting to remorse it.

“It’s bright when  your child loves what you provide for him, esteem how feeding time is, how the song you mutter whereas you swaddle him up or the kind you rock him and those issues,” Nikki outlined. “So on occasion it’s bright no longer to discover mother guilt or feel esteem I’m factual a failure as a mother when I’m no longer giving him those issues and I’m letting somebody else attain it and he’s fussy and he’s crying and he’s upset.”